Black girls are more popular than ever, but many of them are still denied their agency.
In this exclusive interview with MTV News, 18-year-old Black Girl’s Dolly Ann Gee reveals why she feels that she’s a minority in her own right, why she’s not ashamed of being black and why she loves to watch the Black Eyed Peas and their other breakout stars.
[Related: Black Girls Are More Popular Than Ever: 18-Year-Old Black Girl Dollyann Gee]What does being a Black girl mean to you?
I guess to be honest I guess the truth is that I’m not Black any more.
I feel that way, but I know that’s not true.
I don’t have to live up to that standard anymore, and that’s the truth.
And for some of us, that might be the truth as well.
We have more freedom to express ourselves.
And I’m really excited to get my own TV show, and to be a part of it.
And it’s exciting to be able to do something like this, because I feel like it’s an extension of my own personality.
[MTV News: Black Girl: ‘I’m Not Afraid To Be Afraid’]How would you describe your identity?
I’m Black, but not a Black American.
I am not a black American, or a white American, but just me.
I’m just me and I’m here and I love being myself.
And there’s not one part of me that doesn’t love being Black.
It’s just like, “I’m not like that, man.
You’re a piece of shit.
I love my blackness.”
And that’s why I love it.
I do love being black, but you know what?
There’s a lot of people who have a lot more of that in them.
And when I get older, I’m going to get to know my own race.
[See photos of DollyAnn Gee, 18, at the VMAs]What do you think is the most frustrating part about being a minority?
Being in the black community is such a hard life.
Being the only Black girl in the world is a lot to live.
I guess I can relate to that, I guess.
I think the hardest part is that the other girls have to be the same way.
And they can’t be different from me.
It is a constant struggle for me.
They have to have the same attitude.
But I feel the same.
I just have to find that one thing to say, that one positive thing that’s different that I can bring out of myself, that I just want to be myself and have my own life.
I’ve never had a problem finding that.
[Read more: ‘Bed for Girls’: Black Girl Says She’s Not Afrid to Be Black Any More]What has been the most challenging part of being a part the Black community?
I think just finding the right way to approach things.
That’s the hardest.
I mean, it’s been tough because the culture is not really like it is for other minority groups.
And even the people who are doing it, they don’t always know how to interact with other people in the Black Community.
And that makes it a lot harder for them.
But it’s a part that’s very, very hard to break away from.
[Watch ‘Bed To Girls’ stars Dollyanna Gee and Jessica Hogg at the MTV Movie Awards]What is your most memorable experience as a Black person in America?
I mean it’s not a big deal.
I have a very large part of my identity that I feel very connected to.
And as far as my personal life, I don.
I really don’t.
I didn’t even know that I was a Black woman until I went to college.
And in my whole life I’ve been very Black.
I never really had a relationship with my race, and I don to this day.
But being a girl in this culture, I think there’s a certain part of you that you want to stay a girl.
That part of yourself feels that it’s so weird, but that part of your being that you’re not a woman.
And you know, it can be a little tricky.
And then there’s the social aspects.
I get a lot socialized, and people tell me that I don, and it’s really hard to explain to them.
It was hard for me to get away from that part because it’s very personal for me, and for me it’s the one thing that makes me happy, and makes me feel good.
But if I was Black, I would just say, “Okay, I really am a woman.”
And I would get over that part.
[Listen to ‘Bed to Girls’ star Dollyannah Gee discuss being a woman on the MTV Music Awards